Can you bear everything that's above? I don't think I can. I sometimes lie outside and stare into the open space, and wonder- what else is there, apart from clouds and dust and airplanes? I stare into this space and it draws closer and it scares me, it feels like falling into it or being buried under this unimaginable weight. It reminds me of time. Time passing, flashing like a lightning, things happening so fast you feel you're the only being on earth that's petrified and stuck to be left behind. I try to move, I can't move and it makes breathing harder. Space and Time are sitting on my chest and my head starts spinning, they leave me dizzy and I close my eyes.